What-If Number 1

From the outside looking in I look like I have it together. I have a successful career, a wonderful husband, great family and friends. But from the outside you can't see that I at times often crawl in my own skin. I struggle with feelings of anxiety, failure, and overwhelming thoughts of I could be doing so much more. I do not want anyone to ever think that I am not a happy person, or that I just put on a face every day. I don't, I wear my emotions on my sleeves. My poor husband has been through quite the emotional roller coaster the last eight months.

I wonder times if I am the only person that feels like I could be doing more. I think of my calling, my job, my home duties and can make a list of at least five things that I could improve on and when put to it I just feel like I have to be all or nothing. I either need to do all of the things on that list or do none of them. I need to feel like I can do one thing and that one thing will make a difference.

My "what-if" for today is - what if I could pick one thing to change today what would it be?
My one thing that I am going to change today is - I am going to choose to be happy, choose to be patient, and remember when I feel anxious or annoyed that I have a choice to find the good in all things.